Formula 1

Business was soooo good. Wonder she got time to go watch the F1?

She should be very busy today. I can imagine she look beautiful today, just like the day when her sister got married. Is a pity that I didn't manage to get a copy of the photos taken that day.

Busy is good. Makes me tired. But the jam is terrible.

Went drinking with J, Jn & Z the other day. Z looks different from the last time I saw her. I'm glad to know Z. Had a enjoyable night.

创造远比毁灭好。

Chinatown

Whenever I walk pass the wooden bridge that link the carpark & food center, I always remember she don't like walking it caused she think is scary. But I always like to disturb her when we walk pass by jumping on the wooden platform.

Is a matter of heart & determination for every path takes.

Do not cry for what you have lost, be happy for what you once possessed.

I'm a person with IQ & EQ, as I said, I'm strike off balance. Maybe I'm better as friend than partner.

E T- Thanks. Your name had a magic on me. Tends to bring a calming effect on me.
S- 只要你过得比我好，什么事都难不倒我，一直到老。

I hope one day S will remember.

If others can do it, I can as well.

绿光森林

我其实没有不让他自由，我只是捨不得。
应该是说还没习惯，一直在我心里最珍贵的，现在就要属于别人。
不过既然是我心里最珍贵的，就应该让他得到最好的幸福。

当过去的一切决定尘封，能够打开的就只有将来。

From Lingo

爱情当然很重要，但友情是远一点的，你会发现保持友情比保持爱情容易。巧妙之处是当你将所爱的人变成亲人的话，你会很容易过分要求。所以中国人有一句话叫‘相敬如宾’，与爱人保持小小的距离便能像包着保鲜纸一样历久常新。
通常越爱一个人便越想拥有他，但要明白，要拥有必须要放开；保持一段爱情，一定要将他放得最松，他才会贴得你最紧；问得最少，他才会对你讲得最多。

No doubt, romantic love is very important, but it is also a little more than in-your-face than friendship. Hence, you'll find that it is easier to keep friendships than romantic love. The interesting part is: when someone you love becomes someone very intimate in your life, you tend to demand things that are out of line, and take them for granted-- you would only say the least courteous things to them. That's why the Chinese has a saying: 'To respect your loved one as if they were your guests.'
To love someone from a respectful distance is like somewhat like wrapping your relationship in a Seran wrap, keeping your love afresh. The more you love someone, the more you would want ot possess them, but you must understand that in order to hold, you must learn t let go. In love, one must relax one's clutches, in order for your love to stick closer to you. When you ask less, they will open up and tell you even more.

Z Is Back For Good

Heard that Z is back for good. Knew that she had met up with Z. I'm happy for her. When her life was so lost & unhappy, someone who can cheer her up appear. Timing was just right.

Is the same for me. My friend will also happened to call me when I was not feeling good. They are back to my side now.

I will not do anything to frighten her again. I will not do anything to jeopardize her healing process. I hope I can be friend with her again just like Z & her.

I don't believe in running away or staying away from my fear, my weakest link. I will face it & know how to control it or handle it. Like now... I open myself to news & places & people about her. I'm glad that I have been so far so good about it.

Temptation is good. I hope one day you will understand, you will know what I have done for you. How much I have done for you. Not asking for anything back but for you to be happy only.

I believe eventually when I'm over you. When I can find someone else, that girl will be very happy & fortunate caused I will love her the correct way protect her in the right way. I will make sure I stand strong & firm. Never let jealousy to strike me off balance again. Never let anger rule my mind again. Never let insecureness overcome my life.

Trust & respect my partner.

I will never do anything to hurt you again or that will hurt you again. Because I know what is love & how to love now.

Slack

Slack- for the past 1 week. That shouldn't be the way.

Temptation everywhere... Must control myself...

Korean passenger oncall from IBP: Can you take me to SWISSOTEL... ... ... (thinking for a while) THE STAMFORD. Thanks You.
L: Ok, sure no problem. (My heart had actually gone thru a roller coster race)

I'm meeting up with friends again. I will not be a disgrace anymore. I will be who I am when they 1st know me.
I will enjoy my life.
Cheers...

Thanks

Hey, friends- J & EL: Thanks.

You are there when I was not feeling too good the past few days. Especially J, I appreciate your frankness.

I know why you are not there few months back, but you are here with me now. Is was my attitude, behaviour, thinking, action that have drove friends away.
I'm glad they are back now because they know they are not wasting time & effort to accompany me when I was down.
They know I'm not being rational, moreover stubborn during that time. So they stay away from me.
Now they can see I'm trying hard, putting effort to live positively. Most important, I don't have any nonsense.
The more I'm put into temptation, the more I can prove I love her.

Told them, I don't need to know anything about her as long as she's happy.
But I wish when she's not, let me know, I hope. Not that I will disturb her again, but out of concern for her.

I'm glad I have friends like them.

Of course, not forgetting my family. They are the best.

Please understand that I will feel not too good at times. But I can manage it.

To my friend, D- Be strong, I will be there for you just like how you was there for me in the past.

Is time for me to be back to what I'm suppose to be- mature, stable, rational, understanding, funny & strong.
Is time for me to be there for my friends & family when they need me.

I believe what goes around, comes around.

Nobody Love You More Than I Do

I dare to say that. I maybe the worst partner you ever had in your life, but I'm also the one who love you the most in your life. Nobody love you more than I do.

I used to love you in a wrong way, but I love you, no doubt.

Now I know how to love in a right way, I still love you, no regrets.

Is not easy for me to love you in the right way, but I'm doing it for you now. Because I was once the worst & gradually learn how how to love you now. It takes more effort, heart, feeling, pain, hurt, strength, struggle than anybody else.

I just hope you will & you still remember I once brought you smile on your face, happiness in your life when you are smiling & feeling the happiness with someone else now.
When you feel secure with someone but not me, please remember I once gave you this secureness when you are with me & I take care, protected you wholeheartedly.

I'm going to be the mature, stable Louise again.
I was once strike off balance & mind. I tell myself is not going to happen again.

You can stop loving me, you can don't love me anymore.
But you can't stop me from loving you.

I love you, even if is from a distance.
I love you, even if I know you are with someone else.
I love you, even if you are loving someone now.
I love you, even if is going to feel hurt.
I love you, so I'm not changing my will.

Thanks for loving me before.
Thanks for choosing me before.
Thanks for caring me before.
Thanks for taking care of me before.
Thanks for the everything you have given me before.

I will always love you.

难得。。。

难得的是，能握住你的手。
更难得的是，如何放手。

后来，我总算学会了如何去爱。
可惜你早已远去，消失在人海。
后来，终于在眼泪中明白，有些人一但错过就不再。

你让我对爱有了新的领悟，而我将这份领悟运用在你身上。

"Char Shao Mien"

"Char Shao Mien" (Wanton Noodle) that how she call it.

After dropping a passenger at CCK, I drove pass this coffee shop in Teck Whye, I remember once we went there for dinner. I ordered the wanton noodle. To me it doesn't really taste that bad, but she took some from me & said is no good. But I finish it. So she commended: 你是一个很容易照顾的人，你不挑食。

Actually I'm not a person that's easy to handle, I'm a very insecure person. I get paranoid easily. Afraid of losing, I tried to grab it tight & hard. I ended up losing her totally.

If I could turn back the clock, I wish I had never given her such horrible memory. If I were to be given a wish, I wish for her happiness.

Forgetful

I missed my CGH appointment. Next available slot in Oct. Well I'm feeling fine, so it doesn't really matter.

I'm not too busy but just feeling tired. Many places I travelled to brought me memories.

The wet, rainy weather always worried me. Wonder how she travel from place to place? Will she get drench? I pray for her health all the time, every time.

I washed one of my favourite white pans that day. Realising I was not able to remove the stain. I remember there was once I wore it to work when I was still a SO. After inspection, it almost turn black pans. She took the effort to scrub & wash it for me by hands. I was amazed by her cleaning skill cos it look new to me again.

My memories was failing me at times, but I remember most of my time with her. Her gentleness, kindness, loveliness...

I'm glad that I still have so many friends around. C coming back from Shanghai on 27/09.

A Pleasant Night

I had an enjoyable night with friends. Dinner & all the talks, jokes, crabs.... etc

They are happy for me when they see me leading a peaceful life. They believe I have found my passion in life again.

Told them I've got a complaint letter. Take it easy, they are idiot. Why waste energy getting angry with an idiot.

Is always a good feeling knowing someone still care for you & still treats you like part of the family. :)

Is happy to be able to lead life with passion for work, having fun with friends, quality time with family... But someone is missing in my life...

缘分

缘分是很玄妙的。即无法强求也无法强留。
缘分要来的时候，挡也挡不了。
缘分到了尽头，留也留不住。
随缘吧。。。

Costa Sand Resort U13

Family gathering at T01. I remember I came here with her. Her aunt booked a chalet for the 1st time & I drove them there with all the barang barang. It was her family gathering. I was there just like part of the family, helping out, having fun. I remember the journey there, we met with heavy rain. I was still driving the Hyundai lorry GZ574R. All passenger behind was drenched. I felt so bad for them.

I took a day off today after so long. I'll work hard to cover back the lost tomorrow.

Slowly I'm getting rid of the rubbish in my Ubi room. Still more to go. I'm going to make it a cozy place to rest but not to stay.

I saw her online on Fridae.