Fight like a Warrior, Not a Lunatic

Have been lazy lately.

A monthly appointment with my therapist today. She's please with my progress. I'm doing well, doing fine. Living a wonderful life. Enjoying my days.

On J b/d. Met some old friends. Have such good, fun time drinking together. I'm not the least affected by the fact that S was not there becos of me. I/we don't lose out anything. I/We have fun with or w/o her.

Past: Everytime when it rain, I worried for S. Is she drench? Is she cold? How she get from place to place.
Now: I already forgotten to worry for S. Whenever it rain, I only think of where can I go to get more pick up or oncall.

I'm glad with how am I progressing. I'm proud of how I carried myself in front of people. Few months back, I still worried how am I going to face X'mas & my b/d. I don't think I'll be happy. But right now, I know, even if I'm w/o any program, I'll still be happy. Well, I have plans. Good Cheer. Than NY count down, I plan to fly HK,meet friends there & celebrate but still not confirm.

I'm living a better & happier life now. I'm fighting like a warrior, not a lunatic. I treasure my friends very much now. I once lost them when I lost myself. They left me alone when I acted like a lunatic. But they are with me, by my side now becos I'm a warrior. I fight my fear, my weakness like a warrior. I've been thru the darkest moment in my life, so I enjoy & treasure the lights & colours in my life now. Is not easy to come by, to achieve.

Friends, thanks a lot.

I'm reborn at 36. Is not too late. I have taken a big step ahead. I chose to walk out from darkness, from fear, from weakness. I chose to be happy, cherish what I have now. Even when I'm alone, I chose to retreat to my cosy corner & enjoy the serenity I have. Don't believe me, come take a look at my room, you will understand.