Partnership... ???

Recently can't help but start wondering... am I a person suitable to be in a relationship?

Maybe I'm behaving what I am now becos I know she's not the one for me but I don't mind a companion now.

Maybe I do love her.

I enjoy being love by someone so much after so long.

Such difference & gap in our life that I don't really want to bring her to meet some of my friends. I know she will not enjoy & it will affect me. She won't be able to click into that group. In fact some of my friends really tell me frankly about it. But I'm glad some of my buddy just like & enjoy her present.

I maybe harsh on her at times, but I really mean well for her.

At my age, there's nothing much I can or I want to ask for anymore.