American English

Chinese Father, Mother, 2 Daughters inside the taxi.

Father asking about daughters life here as a student. About her attachment, about her accommodation etc... Than they mention about trip or life in USA, in Canada. They communicate in Mandarin. Not sure from China or Taiwan. But I guess they are quite well off.

Than they started topic about S'pore English. S'porean English.

Younger daughter: 那天我的新加坡同学跟我打招呼，halo, 我的天，听得我都傻了。
They started laughing, but she did not say the word "hello" to prove that she did get it the right way...

Than the father to elder daughter: 甜心，你别学新加坡的英语，知道吗？你要保持你的美国英语，那才纯正。。。新加坡人的英语真的不行。。。

In my heart at that moment: x#*!#%@

Approaching destination, elder daughter started giving instruction to taxi driver: In front you turn in (pointing right at the same time)

OMG, is this what you called proper American English. I feel like telling her the American don't speak English this way.

American : Turn right ahead or Make a right turn in front.
British : Take right ahead.

So much of your proper English...*sign*

what's going on now?Or next?

Much had happened ever since my b/d... till now New year 2010... I've got so much to settle yet nothing can be resolve.

There are things I can tell others, I can share with friends, but there are still much kept inside me. Afraid of consequenses, afraid of losing, than I realise the reason that I'm feeling so vexed was due to fear. Becos of this fear inside me, I had not dare to take any action to resolve my problem. Suddenly I remember, what's there to fear of ? Why do I need to be afraid of the consequenses?

Actually I know what I should be doing. Probably I'll take a while to sort things out with her, but I will. I know I can handle it.

01/01/2010

我们遇到开心或不开心的事，时间是灵药，淡忘了，才会有现在的自己。经历人生高低起伏，看破人生何须执着于一时。明白了“没有”的感觉是什么，从那时开始，就突然什么都不怕了。爱一个人有时候是很辛苦的。因为他，你的世界多了担心。也因为忙于担心，你迷失自己，忘了当初相爱的原因。学习怎么放手，才能更自在的爱你。

有一种感动无法用泪水表达，有一种坚持无法用时间衡量，有一种爱情无法用厮守成全，有一种爱叫放手。爱情不是某种结果，而是某种行为的动因，促使我们为自己所心爱的人去心甘情愿的付出。世界最遥远的距离，不是生于死，而是我就站在你面前，你却不知道我爱你。有些缘份是注定要失去的，有些缘份是永远不会有好结果的。爱一个人不一定要拥有，但拥有一个人就一定要好好去爱他。

曾经拥有的不快乐要忘记，已经属于自己的不要放弃，辛苦得来的更要珍惜，已经失去的当做路过，走过的路已成回忆，愿未来一切都能随心所欲。

常听说：爱人是痛苦的，被爱是幸福的。当你经历过爱与被爱，你会发觉爱与或被爱都是痛苦的，惟有相爱才是幸福的。

There's a gap, huge gap between us. Be it age, thinking, life style... I'm beginning to wonder why am I with her. I do enjoy her love, her attention in the beginning, but right now, I wish we have not started at all. I think we can be better friends than partner.